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Craig and I dated when we got back in the new year.

My ex was pissed off and Craig was one of his best friends but he was told where to go and it was ok.

Was strange being with a guy again after the months as a lesbian. Lot of people were gloating. Saying that  I had been attention seeking or going through a phase or just trying to get at my ex bf.

I kep my cool most the time but there was always a desire to be with girls. Dont get me wrong Craig and I had a great time. I loved going out with him and the sex was great. He was certainly the best sex I had had.

Sometimes I would fantasise while we were fucking about being with a girl but mostly was enjoying being with him. we talked about going on holiday together and when we could meet up when we were at university but we both knew that the main attraction for us was the sex.

There was never any thought on my part that I was falling in love with him. It was just a fun casual relationship. One day we sat down and chatted about US and we both agreed that although the sex was great and we had a great time, there was no actual romance between us and that going away to uni pretending to be a couple would be a mistake for both of us.

He was really worried I think taht I would come over all girly and say Ineeded him and shit so I think he was suprised when I was relieved and agree with him that we should end the relationship.

Think he was even more suprised when I suggested being fuck buddies until we went to uni. As you can imagine he was quite keen on that idea.

After that it was weird and the sex just got better. Was like all the pressure was off about there being a relationship involved and it was all the hedonistic rush of a great fuck.

Those were the days.

Was a day where the cheats got the comeupance - well a little bit a least.

Dwain Chambers took the BOC to court to try and make them select him for the Olympics saying his lifetime Olympic ban was unfair. No what was unfair was him being a cheat in the first place. I have seen the effects of people taking performance enhancing drugs and it can be really unpleasant. I know someone who is probably going to the Olympics who I know for a fact takes performancing enhancing drugs. I like them as a person but as a sports lover I actually hope they get caught.

It needs people to get caught to discourage others from doing it. Chambers was cheating for a long time and has cost other Brits medals from the relays he was involved in. Now he is desperate for the cash and he has realised that he is too much of a pussy to play rugby he is trying again. Tough luck fella. Where next? celeb porn?

Another cheat was caught today. De Villiers who plays for the South Afican cricket team claimed a catch when it had not onlt hit the floor first but he had actually rested his hand on top of the ball before he claimed. I am sorry but there is no way he did not know what had happened - the same for the other South Africans behind the wicket. TV replays got it right and they didnt get away with it.

I LOVE sport

I LOVE playing sport

I LOVE watching sport

I CRIED when England won the Rugby world cup

I CRIED when Redgrave got his last gold medal

I jumped up and down when England won the ashes.

But there is never NEVER an excuse for cheating. Play hard but play FAIR.

There are even men and women who are now taking Viagra because there is some evidence it can be performancing enhancing - on and off the sports field.

They need to take a hard line and publish a list of drugs that ARE allowed rather than ones that arent. They need to cut down the loopholes and make it harder for the cheats.

Looks like my options are pretty limited for places to live over the next few weeks.

The place I am living in now i being done up by the owner, he couldnt do that while we were living here could he so we could benefit. Gotta be out be end of month. He even offered me some money to get out early.

Went to new town this week to suss out options for later this year and looks like it will cost me a fortune to live there over the summer. My best bet is going to be to wait until closer to the academic year for a place. There should be work there but not enough to make it worthwhile to move.

My options look like being to go for a short term rent somewhere which is going to cost me loads upfront. Or to take up the bosses offer of a spare room in his house.

Think my only real choice is going to be to move in with the boss so going to speak to him tomorrow and see how soon I can move in. Hope it is the right choice.

Was reading on the BBC website about the types of music allegedly played to inmates at Guantanimo Bay. I remember thinking ages ago that the benefit of being there would be that you wouldnt have to listen to shit by people like Mariah Carey, Celine Deon and David Gray.

Turns out that being there is worse than I thought as they play music to try and break the prisioner snad David Gray is one of the people they play. The stuff they play includes White America by Eminem, Barney The Dinosaur theme, Enter Sandman by Metallica, Sesame Street theme, Babylon by David Gray, Stayin' Alive by The Bee Gees, American Pie by Don McLean and Dirrty by Christina Aguilera.

Can understand all of them apart from Dirrty that I quite like. Barney theme makes me want to go on a killing spree to be honest so not quite sure what that one will achieve.

Anyway poor sensitive David Gray has apparantly complained about his music being played. He should be grateful of the royalties really - he is so past it he can hardly be getting any money from his shit anymore.

As I am trying to write this some guy I dont know has asked me to view his cam.

On his cam he is having a wank. He asked if I liked it so I said was ok - dont wanna hurt the guys feelins you know. That seemed to upset him a little but he perservered - asking what I was wearing, didnt think that jeans and jumper was a good enough answer so he wanted to know what I had underneath.

So he asks if I wanna see him cum. No messing about this guy with wining and dining a girl - bet he would be a fun date. Turns up to date whips cock out, has a wank. Cracking night.

So for curiosities sake I said ok and he asks me to talk dirty to him. So  I said a few things just to see what he did but was pretty crap and sarcastic tbh as not really interested.

Anyway got bored of his cock so closed down webcam. He was not happy asking what happened and was honest and said was not really my thing. He was not happy and said I was boring. Lol. Hope I stopped him from coming that would be funny.

I should have got him really excited then said I was a bloke and see what happened that would be fuckin funny. Might try that next time some perv shows me his cock. lol

Tits are still sore from the CPR last week but a bit better than they were. Not one of you fuckers offered to rub them better for me.... thanx you guys.

I seem to have gone into a sex drought since got back from Glastonbury. Not really had any desires to be honest so not even a bit of masturbation or toy play. Maybe I partied so hard there I used up some reserves. Seems to be a few people not talking to me anymore - maybe I disgusted them with my actions at glasters - dirty rachel whore - bad girl - I should take you over my lap and spank you - or maybe that was from Max Mosleys blog.

Only offer I have really had lately was today. Was out jogging this morning - not a good idea with sore tits but had to do something - when this guy pulled up. What do you think he said? Did he complement me on my hair? Did he ask the way somewhere? Did he ask me to accompany him in his private jet to a tropical island? or did he ask me how much?

Yes of course it was the last one. Now a couple of things. Ok the area I was running does occasionally have some prossies around but only at night not at 10 in the morning. Also I was fucking jogging - not running for the bus - I was obviously dressed for jogging and actually jogging not standing around staring at cars as they drove past. Last but least I have seen the girls who do stand on corners and you know what, I look nothing like them. I wasnt wearing a skirt that showed my knickers or lack of them. I didnt have my tits hanging out - they were sore so well wrapped up and I dont look like a skank who is hooked on drugs and probably carrying every disease under the sun.

I was so shocked that all I said was that I wasnt on the game. He was a cheeky bastard and said he would pay extra for that and knew a quiet place to go. Now I know I might sound a bit loose with my clothes at times buy I AM NOT A WHORE. All I could say was piss off and started jogging again.

He drove real slowly past me and I was starting to get worried as he drove off. I thought that I would get him back and called the police with his reg number and where he was. Of course they were not at all interested and just said there was nothing they could do. I fsomeone gets attacked though they will be out on the streets for a night or two - to show a police presence no doubt. Dickheads.

Still not sure whether I should move away sooner or later. I know I can get loads of work here through the summer and I do need the money, but maybe a move will do me good now rather than after the summer.

My only option for somewhere to stay came from a real strange place later today. The big boss man came up to me and gave me a couple of letters, one was a thank you from the guys wife who I did CPR on, the other was from the Mayor saying well done - didnt save him though did I. Anyway after I read them he asked if I was ok and if I had decided if I was staying in the summer as he needed to finalise shifts.

I told him I was not sure as I needed to find somewhere to live and he said there was a spare room in his house if I needed it. He quickly said that it was just a room, he didnt expect anything else and that since hi swif eleft him he could do with someone around the house and a bit of extra money coming in.

I said I would think about it - not sure what to think really. He lives in a nice area so no being mistaken for a hooker round there. The rent sounded good. But living with my boss. How weird would that be, even if it was for just a few months..

Hmmmmm

So been a few days since I did CPR on that bloke. Have been keeping myself busy to try and keep my mind off it.

My tits are really sore today - think I must have strained a muscle doing CPR. Everytime I move my arms it hurts. Tried to go for a run this morning but as soon as I started breathing heavy my chest was killing. Crap. Was going for a swim as well but think that would be a bad move. So came home and lay in the bath for an hour. Dont think it did anything but was nice n relaxing - bit of music, few candles, just needed someone to scrub me back.

Worked all day yesterday at the pool. Had an early shift so was .. 8am. Couple of people phoned in sick so the manager asked if I wanted to do a double shift. So I kept working all the way to 8 pm. Felt pretty knackered at the end of it but a few of us decided to go and watch kung fu panda. Was pretty fun in places and we were all being real stupid in the cinema, shouting kung fu panda at the screen. Manager came in and told us off but was still real funny.

Went to a pub after and were still doing panda impressions - people were staring at us like we were crazy - lol.

Only had a couple of drinks but felt pissed as I had hardly anything to eat all day. Decided on a real healthy meals o we headed to the kebab shop then I headed home. Working again later today so had a bit of a lie in this morning.

Think I forgot to mention that I had my final uni results. Do you know what I got yet? Shall I keep you in suspense? Do you really give a shit? Well I got a first. Yes a FIRST. A big FUCKING FIRST. Who said you cant be a s fit a sfuck, a great fuck and FUCKIN bright. As you can probably tell I was a little excited at the news.

Have been accepted on my course in the Autumn so am def moving away from here. Will good for a change of scenery to be honest. Most of friends have already gone so wont be too much of a wrench.

Still need to find somewhere to live from the end of this month. Was planning on staying round here to the last minute as I had 2 good jobs that were getting me cash in the bank. Looks like the bar job has gone now as it is still closed after the fight.

Dunno if it is worth moving and getting a job in the new place or not. Will have to think about that one